Yesterday, my husband told me that I look and act like a pregnant woman. I sit around all the time and eat a lot. I noticed it too especially because my breasts are extremely painful and they are growing really fast. But because I know that I’ve been having this feeling for months since I stopped with the birth control pill, I shrugged it off and took it as my body’s withdrawal symptoms from three years of taking birth control pills. I read it somewhere that I will have these side effects if I stop with the pill.
This morning, I felt like I need to throw up but I didn’t. I also realized that my period hasn’t arrived yet and I never ever missed a period before. At this point, the possibility that I might be pregnant was staring to sink in so I didn’t waste a minute of not knowing for sure. I went to the nearby drug store and bought a home pregnancy test. Soon as I got home, I did the test right away and I got two very clear lines.
POSTIVE!
I felt a lot of emotions at the same time—overjoyed, excited, nervous, worried, and other emotions I can’t really name. I was basically very happy and wanted so badly to tell a soul. I was nervous too because I didn’t know what I should do! I mean like, so I’m pregnant, great… but what now? I was so desperate to tell someone. I tried to call my husband but he didn’t pick up. I know for a fact that he’s doing some kind of special driving training today and I know for a fact that he’s probably not going to pick up but I was still so disappointed that he didn’t.
I felt panic creeping in to me and I don’t know why—I mean, we are waiting for a baby! The reason why I stopped with the birth control pills because we thought it’s time but now that it’s there, I am freaking out. So when Rene didn’t pick up, I dialed my mom-in-law’s number. The moment she said “Hallo”, I started telling her right away—in German!
After that I felt a lot better. My mom-in-law and I talked a bit longer about it. Later on, she told me that I should immediately look for a gynecologist and schedule an appointment. She also told me that if I don’t want to let Rene know that she knows about it before he learned about it, then she will keep it as a secret (very sweet woman). But later on I told Rene about that because I know that Rene won’t mind at all.
So after the talked with my mom-in-law, I did what she told me to do. I looked for a gynecologist and found one in our community and I am so lucky to get a schedule today at 7:00pm.
I sent an SMS to Rene telling him that I have to tell him something and that we are going to meet someone this evening. Then I gave myself a couple more hours to calm down before heading to work.
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